You wouldnt know how hurtful it is when you said these. It has been so long that my heart felt this way. My heart really sank in so deeply. I hate you for saying all these and treating me worse than a shit, yet I still love you and dont bear to let go. Because everytime when I feel like letting go, I would ask myself how much effort and hardwork have I fought for you. You really wouldnt know how hurting it is. I'm really really lost. I want it and I want you. The moment I gave it a try to bring you back you would push me away, and that impact was really huge that I dont know how to walk back to you. Its very heartbreaking. Now I dont know if I should give up since you gave up already, when you claim " you love me "